Sunday, June 5, 2011

Are you positive that molehill's not a mountain? It looks pretty big to me...

It should not come as a surprise to anyone in the continental United States, Canada, New Zealand, or Argentina when I say that I am a dramatic person. I overreact to things. It's a problem that I have. That being said, these have been some pretty big weeks in the life. Seriously. The beginning of the end. Or is it the end of the beginning? I never can tell which...

May 25 was graduation. Yippee. It doesn't feel real to me yet. Not at all. It felt like I was playing dress-up all day. But it was real. It happened. I'm done. That seemingly-huge chapter of my life? Yeah, it's over. What now? What do I do? 

Somewhere during that week I had a birthday. A pretty big one. Remember when 18 was so old? When my friends started turning 18 in September, I was pretty freaked out. Now it's me. Scary. I've found that when it comes to my birthday, I have to not think about it as a special day. I was talking to my sister about this last week (on her birthday). We're both the same when it comes to birthdays. If we expect anything special from it, anything at all, we end up getting cranky and upset.  This is why I don't understand how some people think that being selfish is what's going to make them happy. It's just miserable! Granted, I can be super selfish. But whenever I am, I just feel crappy. What's the point?

I apologize for rambling. I'm just freaking out that now I'm a "big girl". At least, that's what they say. I'm not so sure I believe that yet... One of my favorite people in the world has a blog titled "Looking for my big girl pants". She is in her thirties and a mother of five. This makes me a lot less worried, actually. If she still hasn't found her big girl pants yet, and she gets to be that amazing, then I have a chance at being okay, too.

I'm not the prettiest, or the smartest, the most talented, or the funniest. Goodness knows I'm not the kindest. But I am me. And you know what? I am perfectly okay with that.  So, World? I'm coming now. You might want to get ready.


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4 comments:

  1. Cody R. EckmanJune 5, 2011 at 8:19 PM

    I like you as you are, Lisa! Even if I know very little about you... I don't need to know you to like you, I think. Thanks for the post. It's a thinker. =)

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  2. Big Girl PantsJune 5, 2011 at 10:52 PM

    My Lisa. I have just rumbled through your witty blog. Oh how I love you. I am a little comforted that when you go, I will be able to get on here and see how your days are going in the big wide world. How did you get so dang smart so young? Thank you for visiting Big Girl Pants and letting me know you were there. Love.

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  3. Jessica BelleJune 7, 2011 at 7:49 AM

    And I just LOVE you being you! :) Lisa, you are amazing. :)

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  4. Saya HartJune 7, 2011 at 3:01 PM

    Lisa Love! I love you! And this post! And you are so kind! To me at least :P Let's play? Yay! (Dang, none of this rhymed like I planned.)

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